SUPPORT and LOVE will never replace encouragement cards and affirmations....
And its not rocket science to understand why.
Sunday, 26 September 2010
Monday, 13 September 2010
Do you still remember why you serve?
Do you still remember the fervour and conviction when you said 'Yes' to God?
Do you still remember how God put you through testings and provide you with the eventual deliverance?
Do i still remember the above things?
Sometimes i just feel that giving your best isnt enough,
the ends doesn't justify the efforts you have put in.
I have not served because of the position,
nor of the number of meetings to go to.
These are of insignificance to me!
I just want to see people grow,
to experience life transformation
and yet this has not come to past.
Tell me what am i supposed to do
how to see victory in this hopelessly futile situation
Do you still remember the fervour and conviction when you said 'Yes' to God?
Do you still remember how God put you through testings and provide you with the eventual deliverance?
Do i still remember the above things?
Sometimes i just feel that giving your best isnt enough,
the ends doesn't justify the efforts you have put in.
I have not served because of the position,
nor of the number of meetings to go to.
These are of insignificance to me!
I just want to see people grow,
to experience life transformation
and yet this has not come to past.
Are my expectations too high?
Are they too unrealistic and unachievable?
Tell me what am i supposed to do
how to see victory in this hopelessly futile situation
Tuesday, 27 July 2010
Do you ever experience,
a sense of lostness that you dont even know what is the next step,
a sense of despair that stares at hopelessness,
a sense of loneliness that no one else understands,
a sense of brokenness unprecedented in your life?
What will you do if the above happens to you, at one, single, heavy blow?
a sense of lostness that you dont even know what is the next step,
a sense of despair that stares at hopelessness,
a sense of loneliness that no one else understands,
a sense of brokenness unprecedented in your life?
What will you do if the above happens to you, at one, single, heavy blow?
Tuesday, 6 July 2010
Sunday, 4 July 2010
Sometimes i just feel lonely,
Like no one understands the situation i am going through.
Am i to walk this journey alone,
and take up the weight of my task upon my shoulders?
It seems to be in vain,
sometimes a little hopeless
in the things that i do and want to do.
But i know i cant give up,
for here is where my sole hope and salvation could be found.
With a broken heart and feeble hands,
i reach out to you for strength.
Remember Your promise, oh Lord,
that you never leave or forsake me
for in you i will find peace.
[Romans 8:16-17]
The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God's children. Now if we are children,
then we are heirs - heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his suffering in
order that we may also share in His glory.
Like no one understands the situation i am going through.
Am i to walk this journey alone,
and take up the weight of my task upon my shoulders?
It seems to be in vain,
sometimes a little hopeless
in the things that i do and want to do.
But i know i cant give up,
for here is where my sole hope and salvation could be found.
With a broken heart and feeble hands,
i reach out to you for strength.
Remember Your promise, oh Lord,
that you never leave or forsake me
for in you i will find peace.
[Romans 8:16-17]
The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God's children. Now if we are children,
then we are heirs - heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his suffering in
order that we may also share in His glory.
Sunday, 13 June 2010
I will remember the Lord,
and all the things that He has opened my eyes to.
Oh God,
Remind me of your love and grace,
that has brought me to who i am and where i am now.
Afflictions and problems have come my way,
my heart is discouraged and distressed.
Problems seemed to come wave after wave,
there is no moment of peace.
But still my hope is placed in the Lord,
For He has been good to me.
Oh Lord do not forget your servant,
cast off my iniquities and sins,
Place my focus on your greatness
and your mighty power
that brings me comfort and assurance.
Grant me peace, Oh Lord,
For you are my Jehovah Shalom.
[Psalm 25:16-17]
Turn to me and be gracious to me,
For i am lonely and afflicted.
The troubles of my heart have multiplied,
Free me from my anguish.
and all the things that He has opened my eyes to.
Oh God,
Remind me of your love and grace,
that has brought me to who i am and where i am now.
Afflictions and problems have come my way,
my heart is discouraged and distressed.
Problems seemed to come wave after wave,
there is no moment of peace.
But still my hope is placed in the Lord,
For He has been good to me.
Oh Lord do not forget your servant,
cast off my iniquities and sins,
Place my focus on your greatness
and your mighty power
that brings me comfort and assurance.
Grant me peace, Oh Lord,
For you are my Jehovah Shalom.
[Psalm 25:16-17]
Turn to me and be gracious to me,
For i am lonely and afflicted.
The troubles of my heart have multiplied,
Free me from my anguish.
Monday, 2 November 2009
2/NOV/2009
I am a man, make no mistake about it.
I do make mistakes.
I do have weaknesses.
I do have things that i feel comfortable and not comfortable with.
I am flawed and thus, imperfect.
Therefore do not expect me to be a person that you think i would be.
I am not bounded by judgements nor expectations.
I would rather be myself than trying to be someone that meets the expectation of others.
Facades come and go, yet they always will be temporary.
The mask will peel off eventually, revealing the core of a person's heart.
When a heart is engaged in a war within itself,
who can bear the pain, the confusion?
Yet wars would not last forever,
there will be a time to fight,
yet also a time to recover and to heal.
But that time is yet to come.
Therefore,
be patient, i beseech you.
Be patient in hope.
I do make mistakes.
I do have weaknesses.
I do have things that i feel comfortable and not comfortable with.
I am flawed and thus, imperfect.
Therefore do not expect me to be a person that you think i would be.
I am not bounded by judgements nor expectations.
I would rather be myself than trying to be someone that meets the expectation of others.
Facades come and go, yet they always will be temporary.
The mask will peel off eventually, revealing the core of a person's heart.
When a heart is engaged in a war within itself,
who can bear the pain, the confusion?
Yet wars would not last forever,
there will be a time to fight,
yet also a time to recover and to heal.
But that time is yet to come.
Therefore,
be patient, i beseech you.
Be patient in hope.
Monday, 19 October 2009
19 Oct 2009
I live for God alone,
my purpose is in Him and His will,
and my faith is in His word.
Let men not stumble me,
nor discourage me,
neither will they distract me,
as long as i keep my focus,
on the One who is ever faithful to me.
Only His love sustains me,
and His grace keeps me going.
Which man can say,
'' i would be ever loving,
and forever faithful?''
No one can replace God,
in the past, present and future,
therefore only to Him can i entrust my life.
my purpose is in Him and His will,
and my faith is in His word.
Let men not stumble me,
nor discourage me,
neither will they distract me,
as long as i keep my focus,
on the One who is ever faithful to me.
Only His love sustains me,
and His grace keeps me going.
Which man can say,
'' i would be ever loving,
and forever faithful?''
No one can replace God,
in the past, present and future,
therefore only to Him can i entrust my life.
Monday, 5 October 2009
5th October 2009
Its interesting to know, to feel and experience how much responsibility is resting on our leaders, people who devoted themselves to serve a caregroup with faith and drive. They are the ones who need to account for our lives to God, to make sure that we are in tip top spiritual conditions, and to solve any hiccups that may occur on the way. I believe they sacrificed their time, their energy to do what they are being called to do, and to do it with an unwavering faith. They desire the caregroup to grow, to achieve what needs to be achieved, and to see things come to a past. Its never easy to lead, yet they do it because they see the purpose behind it.
May their faith, desire and a heart of selflessness be permeated into the very veins of our caregroup!
Thank God for our leaders! :) you know who you are.
May their faith, desire and a heart of selflessness be permeated into the very veins of our caregroup!
Thank God for our leaders! :) you know who you are.
Wednesday, 30 September 2009
30/09/2009
i wonder, what is the point of preparing for your role, and not being used in the end. It seems as though the effort put in is absolutely wasted and pointless in hindsight. What makes it even more depressing is the fact that all is done with an aim for God's purpose, and yet it is of no use in the end.
So, why do we do what we do? If everything we did goes down the drain, what is the point of doing what we do?
Looking at the prophets in the Old Testament, i believe that they spread God's message of repentance to the people with a hope that they might listen and repent for what they are doing. Yet not many prophets are able to see this hope being fulfilled, with an exception in Jonah. When opportunities diminishes, does our effort and faith diminish together as well? Do the prophets gave up and shut themselves in a convent, forever lamenting their unfavourable conditions, or simply keep it unto themselves?
I do gain much by preparing for my role. It is my first time preparing the teaching for a long long time, helping me to re-learn and revise some previous things taught to me. But what purpose does it achieve if it benefits me alone?
I still believe that i need to do what i do. But i need hope that wouldnt fail me to see it come to a past.
So, why do we do what we do? If everything we did goes down the drain, what is the point of doing what we do?
Looking at the prophets in the Old Testament, i believe that they spread God's message of repentance to the people with a hope that they might listen and repent for what they are doing. Yet not many prophets are able to see this hope being fulfilled, with an exception in Jonah. When opportunities diminishes, does our effort and faith diminish together as well? Do the prophets gave up and shut themselves in a convent, forever lamenting their unfavourable conditions, or simply keep it unto themselves?
I do gain much by preparing for my role. It is my first time preparing the teaching for a long long time, helping me to re-learn and revise some previous things taught to me. But what purpose does it achieve if it benefits me alone?
I still believe that i need to do what i do. But i need hope that wouldnt fail me to see it come to a past.
Monday, 28 September 2009
28.09.2009
We always pray that God will show us our blindspots, our hidden weaknesses or sins that plagues us unknowingly. Most of these blindspots can be found in our attitudes and our actions; embedding itself into our personality with each and every experience in life; experiences we have when we are young, what family background we come from, and past hurts or mistakes that we may still regret now. Other blindspots may come from our own set of rules or values that we hold, which may not be biblical yet we either ignored it or didnt look much into it.
When God shows our blindspots, what is our response to it? Some would respond in embarassment or guilt, probably for a hidden sin that lurks in our conscience. Others would respond in anger, putting the blame unto others for the bad experience that we suffer or go through. Still others would rue that things would not have turn out as it is if this or that happened during the process leading to the unhappy outcome.
Yet what is God's purpose for us to know our blindspots? Is it to rue over it, be angered by it, or be shamed? Neither. God wants us to change and acknowledge that blindspot, to accept it as a weakness, and to overcome it with His power and grace. People dislike changes, especially when the root of the issue is deeply implanted into our hearts, yet to live the life that Christ wants us to live is never easy.
When God shows our blindspots, what is our response to it? Some would respond in embarassment or guilt, probably for a hidden sin that lurks in our conscience. Others would respond in anger, putting the blame unto others for the bad experience that we suffer or go through. Still others would rue that things would not have turn out as it is if this or that happened during the process leading to the unhappy outcome.
Yet what is God's purpose for us to know our blindspots? Is it to rue over it, be angered by it, or be shamed? Neither. God wants us to change and acknowledge that blindspot, to accept it as a weakness, and to overcome it with His power and grace. People dislike changes, especially when the root of the issue is deeply implanted into our hearts, yet to live the life that Christ wants us to live is never easy.
Monday, 21 September 2009
21/09/2009
The futility of men is the sign of a needed dependency on God. Its already some time, and i have yet to see what is spoken, what is agreed upon, and what is prophesied. Therefore, should i throw in the towel and give up now? It would be foolish indeed.
I would say i didnt see much, as compared to some others. Of course, there are ups and downs, the pinnacle and the valley in life. But to give up at this critical point would be throwing away every chance and every hope, no matter how little it is.
No matter how many disappointments and near-misses accumulated thus far, we still have hope, we still have faith. How long it is going to last, i wont know. But what i know is, if there is unity and commitment in doing what we have agreed upon, then there will be fruits and blessings from the One who first called us.
But how long will this wait be? How long will this slumber continue?
Will it be another disappointment or another regret again? Just how long are we going to lament what is lost, and what would have been?
Its enough for me.
I would say i didnt see much, as compared to some others. Of course, there are ups and downs, the pinnacle and the valley in life. But to give up at this critical point would be throwing away every chance and every hope, no matter how little it is.
No matter how many disappointments and near-misses accumulated thus far, we still have hope, we still have faith. How long it is going to last, i wont know. But what i know is, if there is unity and commitment in doing what we have agreed upon, then there will be fruits and blessings from the One who first called us.
But how long will this wait be? How long will this slumber continue?
Will it be another disappointment or another regret again? Just how long are we going to lament what is lost, and what would have been?
Its enough for me.
Monday, 3 August 2009
02.August.2009
Certain things happened to me recently, that threatens my life's status quo. Somehow there is an intrusion upon my life that i am uncomfortable with, yet i am forced to take it up nonetheless. May the Lord help me with this discomfort that makes me go out of my own comfort zone to serve You. QT may no longer be shared with You in my room, but i pray that You will give me a good, quiet and private place for me to continue to live my life with You, God.
Places may change,
situations may be unfavourable,
emotions may be dull,
life may be dry,
Distractions may come,
But,
You are always the same,
Unchanging from generation to generation,
from the beginning to the end,
Your love never changes,
nor does it ever fail,
my Hope is in You.
Bring me closer,
and sustain my life,
for Your work and purpose
that You have planned for me.
Temptations may come, and it always comes stronger whenever its previous attempt failed. Guard my heart Lord; show me a way out of this. For it is written,
(1 Corinthians 10:13) (Amplifed Bible)
For no temptation (no trial regarded as enticing to sin), [no matter how it comes or where it leads] has overtaken you and laid hold on you that is not common to man [that is, no temptation or trial has come to you that is beyond human resistance and that is not [adjusted and] adapted and belonging to human experience, and such as man can bear]. But God is faithful [to His Word and to His compassionate nature], and He [can be trusted] not to let you be tempted and tried and assayed beyond your ability and strength of resistance and power to endure, but with the temptation He will [always] also provide the way out (the means of escape to a landing place), that you may be capable and strong and powerful to bear up under it patiently.
Being tempted is a good thing, because it means that the enemy sees you as a precious child of God, and temptations are traps that has the potential to make us fall away from the Lord if we respond to it unbiblically.
I love the amplified version! It makes things more clear. Haha.. time to get an amplified Bible ler!
Places may change,
situations may be unfavourable,
emotions may be dull,
life may be dry,
Distractions may come,
But,
You are always the same,
Unchanging from generation to generation,
from the beginning to the end,
Your love never changes,
nor does it ever fail,
my Hope is in You.
Bring me closer,
and sustain my life,
for Your work and purpose
that You have planned for me.
Temptations may come, and it always comes stronger whenever its previous attempt failed. Guard my heart Lord; show me a way out of this. For it is written,
(1 Corinthians 10:13) (Amplifed Bible)
For no temptation (no trial regarded as enticing to sin), [no matter how it comes or where it leads] has overtaken you and laid hold on you that is not common to man [that is, no temptation or trial has come to you that is beyond human resistance and that is not [adjusted and] adapted and belonging to human experience, and such as man can bear]. But God is faithful [to His Word and to His compassionate nature], and He [can be trusted] not to let you be tempted and tried and assayed beyond your ability and strength of resistance and power to endure, but with the temptation He will [always] also provide the way out (the means of escape to a landing place), that you may be capable and strong and powerful to bear up under it patiently.
Being tempted is a good thing, because it means that the enemy sees you as a precious child of God, and temptations are traps that has the potential to make us fall away from the Lord if we respond to it unbiblically.
I love the amplified version! It makes things more clear. Haha.. time to get an amplified Bible ler!
Wednesday, 29 July 2009
29/07/2009
I had a wierd dream last night....
I was shown 5 separate cities, each with their own sins written beside them. Each city has their own set of sin that is different from another, an evil unique to their own.
And within each city, there is a prophet, a man of God, chosen and anointed by God to lead their respective cities back to Him. There's one prophet for one city.
A gush of comfort fell upon me, knowing that God still plans to bring people back to Him no matter where they are, where they belong to.
And then i was shown another scene. I am introduced to a number of different torturing, lethal devices. I only remembered 2. The first looks like a large monsoon drain, with lower walls and narrower body, that had spikes protruding out towards the internal sides of the drain. And within the drain is a man trapped, looking miserable and seem to have all hope lost written over his face. He scribbles something on the wall, and when i went over to look at it, it was a lamentation of his misery.
Suddenly, I saw a name. The name is 'Parish'.
And the second device, which i didnt have a clear look (it looks like a wooden structure), has its name as well. The name is 'flangelling'.
Then i saw someone picking up something from the 'flangelling', and words come to me, ' Go, capture and whip the boy. ' I see myself starting to run from the person...........
And then my alarm clock ring.
I was shown 5 separate cities, each with their own sins written beside them. Each city has their own set of sin that is different from another, an evil unique to their own.
And within each city, there is a prophet, a man of God, chosen and anointed by God to lead their respective cities back to Him. There's one prophet for one city.
A gush of comfort fell upon me, knowing that God still plans to bring people back to Him no matter where they are, where they belong to.
And then i was shown another scene. I am introduced to a number of different torturing, lethal devices. I only remembered 2. The first looks like a large monsoon drain, with lower walls and narrower body, that had spikes protruding out towards the internal sides of the drain. And within the drain is a man trapped, looking miserable and seem to have all hope lost written over his face. He scribbles something on the wall, and when i went over to look at it, it was a lamentation of his misery.
Suddenly, I saw a name. The name is 'Parish'.
And the second device, which i didnt have a clear look (it looks like a wooden structure), has its name as well. The name is 'flangelling'.
Then i saw someone picking up something from the 'flangelling', and words come to me, ' Go, capture and whip the boy. ' I see myself starting to run from the person...........
And then my alarm clock ring.
Tuesday, 28 July 2009
28/07/2009
An Affirmation to Kiu!
Thank God for my CL and shepherd, who turns 7 years old in Christ on 23rd June! Kiu ah... its been a long time since i first know you, and you have really grown a lot in the Lord in recent years! You have grown a lot in your communication with people, your faith and love for your sheep. and your enduring faith for Jesus! Continue to lead with anointing and strength from God, and i believe our CG shall see our vision come to a past, within this coming 9 mths! May God bless you even more!
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Also wanna thank God for my work! God has blessed me so greatly in working the whole of last week, that i had very smooth days at work. I also enjoy the company of nice people in the workplace! They are all very helpful and supportive. I pray that the Lord will continue to bless me and my work!
With faith and blessings also come struggles and trials. May God strengthen my faith in Him through these testing times! I am not gonna let go of Your Hand, no matter how tempted i am in life. Help me to stay focus, and not turning to the left or the right. I wanna walk the straight path You have set before me.
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We want to see the lineage of SP continue, even when some of us will be leaving the land soon. We want to see replacements, generation of people who serve God with fervour and desire!
We want to see growth, and not decrease in numbers when we end our stage of life here.
More will come back to Christ! By His Grace it Can, it Will, and it Must be Done!
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[1 Corinthians 13:4-7] [MSG]
Love never gives up.
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn't want what it doesn't have.
Love doesn't strut,
Doesn't have a swelled head,
Doesn't force itself on others,
Isn't always "me first,"
Doesn't fly off the handle,
Doesn't keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn't revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end.
That sums up love. Do you really love, or just use it as a byword or excuse to achieve your selfish aims? Its time to give careful thoughts to your ways.... if you are humble enough to do it.
Thank God for my CL and shepherd, who turns 7 years old in Christ on 23rd June! Kiu ah... its been a long time since i first know you, and you have really grown a lot in the Lord in recent years! You have grown a lot in your communication with people, your faith and love for your sheep. and your enduring faith for Jesus! Continue to lead with anointing and strength from God, and i believe our CG shall see our vision come to a past, within this coming 9 mths! May God bless you even more!
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Also wanna thank God for my work! God has blessed me so greatly in working the whole of last week, that i had very smooth days at work. I also enjoy the company of nice people in the workplace! They are all very helpful and supportive. I pray that the Lord will continue to bless me and my work!
With faith and blessings also come struggles and trials. May God strengthen my faith in Him through these testing times! I am not gonna let go of Your Hand, no matter how tempted i am in life. Help me to stay focus, and not turning to the left or the right. I wanna walk the straight path You have set before me.
_____________________________________________________
We want to see the lineage of SP continue, even when some of us will be leaving the land soon. We want to see replacements, generation of people who serve God with fervour and desire!
We want to see growth, and not decrease in numbers when we end our stage of life here.
More will come back to Christ! By His Grace it Can, it Will, and it Must be Done!
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[1 Corinthians 13:4-7] [MSG]
Love never gives up.
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn't want what it doesn't have.
Love doesn't strut,
Doesn't have a swelled head,
Doesn't force itself on others,
Isn't always "me first,"
Doesn't fly off the handle,
Doesn't keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn't revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end.
That sums up love. Do you really love, or just use it as a byword or excuse to achieve your selfish aims? Its time to give careful thoughts to your ways.... if you are humble enough to do it.
Friday, 10 July 2009
10 July 2009
A Testimony to share!
Today went for an interview some where near Upper Paya Lebar... Dun really wish to go actually since i am already waiting for another job confirmation for another job... But since God gave me a second chance ( i missed the 1st interview for this one) so i felt i might as well take it...
I left home at 8 (the interview is at 9am) den i thot to myself i am gonna be late, cos i dun really know the place, and Paya lebar sounds very far from my home. But I managed to reach the destination within 30 minutes (with bus ok!) Hahaha. Somehow God blessed my travel and keep me from being late.
And den its the interview. This is the longest interview that i have ever experienced! But throughout the interview the boss was very engaging and friendly, sharing a lot of stuffs that relates to the job. And towards the end he just simply offer me the job directly.
I considered it for a while as i travel home... Den in the end i accept the job....
Well, God is simply amazing! He blessed me by keeping me from lateness, gave me a boss who is friendly and knows what he is doing, and He gives me a choice to choose out of 2 job offers!
The economy isnt good at all;
I am not a top student. More like a bad student.
I have no job experience other than the internship in SP.
Neither am i someone who can offer many different types of skills;
Or talented in any way that benefits my job finding;
I only have my God.
But His grace is sufficient for me
that i am able to make a choice between 2 jobs
work not 5, but 4 days a week
a workplace that isnt that far from my home
and leaving Saturday and Sunday free to serve!
Its not because i am good,
but because He loves me.
Praise Him!
(Isaiah 40:30-31)
Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.
Today went for an interview some where near Upper Paya Lebar... Dun really wish to go actually since i am already waiting for another job confirmation for another job... But since God gave me a second chance ( i missed the 1st interview for this one) so i felt i might as well take it...
I left home at 8 (the interview is at 9am) den i thot to myself i am gonna be late, cos i dun really know the place, and Paya lebar sounds very far from my home. But I managed to reach the destination within 30 minutes (with bus ok!) Hahaha. Somehow God blessed my travel and keep me from being late.
And den its the interview. This is the longest interview that i have ever experienced! But throughout the interview the boss was very engaging and friendly, sharing a lot of stuffs that relates to the job. And towards the end he just simply offer me the job directly.
I considered it for a while as i travel home... Den in the end i accept the job....
Well, God is simply amazing! He blessed me by keeping me from lateness, gave me a boss who is friendly and knows what he is doing, and He gives me a choice to choose out of 2 job offers!
The economy isnt good at all;
I am not a top student. More like a bad student.
I have no job experience other than the internship in SP.
Neither am i someone who can offer many different types of skills;
Or talented in any way that benefits my job finding;
I only have my God.
But His grace is sufficient for me
that i am able to make a choice between 2 jobs
work not 5, but 4 days a week
a workplace that isnt that far from my home
and leaving Saturday and Sunday free to serve!
Its not because i am good,
but because He loves me.
Praise Him!
(Isaiah 40:30-31)
Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.
Tuesday, 23 June 2009
Happy Bday................to myself! haha!
Today marks the starting of the 3rd year (and 2 years old) for me in Christ!
Its 2 years liao... not too long nor too short... and looking back at this past 2 years there's so much things that happened in my life...
There's mountaintops where irrepressible joy could be found, yet there are also a number of deep valleys that shaped how i think and feel forever...
I wanna take this time (and space) to thank those who have really impacted me throughout this 2 year's walk with God.
Let's start from the very beginning.....
Firstly, i wan to thank and affirm Pooi yee, cos she is the one who invited and brought me to Hope church. If she didnt take that effort to invite me, i wont be here today loh! Haha come to think of it, everything seems to be so flowing in God's plan. Thank God for you, and also wanna affirm you for being a helpful sister to the unit. Continue to grow in God and love your people, and make an impact in SP!
2ndly, i wan to affirm Jorris. Jorris is the person who shared soooo much after the service 2 years ago that convinced me to accept Christ into my life. I wan to thank you for your sacrificial heart, and also teaching me how to be a 'planning' and organised person while i was your sheep. Although you always kena targeted for our jokes, but i believe that the guys under your care genuinely appreciates what you have done for them. Its not easy to lead a whole group of guys, especially when u are not of the same gender. But you took up the challenge and lead us well. You have impacted us so greatly such that some of your qualities have been seen in our current leaders after you left. Thank you for what you have done!
3rdly, i wan to affirm Soh Yi Heng Barnabas. As my 1st shepherd, you have took great pains to help me in my new faith, and build the foundations in my heart. I thank you for the shepherdings that built up my faith in God, for the foundations stayed with me even today. I have to admit that i am quite rebellious towards the end, but still thank God for your patience and love that you show to your sheep. Continue to exhibit and spread the love of God to your people as well as in NS!
4thly(?), i affirm Jeremy Kiu! Hahaha! Kiu is still my shepherd till today, and i still remember the time when we were spiritual buddies. Haha we shared the distinction of emoness and did some realllyyy stupid stuffs every saturday after service (in the past). You are someone who knows me well, up to the extent that can 'blackmail' me with my own secrets! I thank you for being a faithful brother-in-Christ, and i believe i have learnt a lot through sharing life with you. Continue to serve God wholeheartedly, and i believe God will shower us with blessings in SP! Jia you!
Of cos, there's still more people who have impacted my life in one way or another in this 2 years. I thank you all for your influence in my life as well. You noe who you are! Hahaha!
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Its 2 years liao... not too long nor too short... and looking back at this past 2 years there's so much things that happened in my life...
There's mountaintops where irrepressible joy could be found, yet there are also a number of deep valleys that shaped how i think and feel forever...
I wanna take this time (and space) to thank those who have really impacted me throughout this 2 year's walk with God.
Let's start from the very beginning.....
Firstly, i wan to thank and affirm Pooi yee, cos she is the one who invited and brought me to Hope church. If she didnt take that effort to invite me, i wont be here today loh! Haha come to think of it, everything seems to be so flowing in God's plan. Thank God for you, and also wanna affirm you for being a helpful sister to the unit. Continue to grow in God and love your people, and make an impact in SP!
2ndly, i wan to affirm Jorris. Jorris is the person who shared soooo much after the service 2 years ago that convinced me to accept Christ into my life. I wan to thank you for your sacrificial heart, and also teaching me how to be a 'planning' and organised person while i was your sheep. Although you always kena targeted for our jokes, but i believe that the guys under your care genuinely appreciates what you have done for them. Its not easy to lead a whole group of guys, especially when u are not of the same gender. But you took up the challenge and lead us well. You have impacted us so greatly such that some of your qualities have been seen in our current leaders after you left. Thank you for what you have done!
3rdly, i wan to affirm Soh Yi Heng Barnabas. As my 1st shepherd, you have took great pains to help me in my new faith, and build the foundations in my heart. I thank you for the shepherdings that built up my faith in God, for the foundations stayed with me even today. I have to admit that i am quite rebellious towards the end, but still thank God for your patience and love that you show to your sheep. Continue to exhibit and spread the love of God to your people as well as in NS!
4thly(?), i affirm Jeremy Kiu! Hahaha! Kiu is still my shepherd till today, and i still remember the time when we were spiritual buddies. Haha we shared the distinction of emoness and did some realllyyy stupid stuffs every saturday after service (in the past). You are someone who knows me well, up to the extent that can 'blackmail' me with my own secrets! I thank you for being a faithful brother-in-Christ, and i believe i have learnt a lot through sharing life with you. Continue to serve God wholeheartedly, and i believe God will shower us with blessings in SP! Jia you!
Of cos, there's still more people who have impacted my life in one way or another in this 2 years. I thank you all for your influence in my life as well. You noe who you are! Hahaha!
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God, i still remember the vision you have for me. Sometimes, i would forget, while other times i will remember it and be motivated by it. There's still much to change, much to surrender and be taken away in my life, for when i see myself with the standard of Yours, i see much flaws and aspects that must be get rid of. God help me, change me into a better servant for You and Your Kingdom. Purify, and take away the rags; for only a pure vessel can be used by You.
Last year was dominated by restoration. Let this coming year be a year of advancement in my walk with You. I need to catch up a few steps with You, Jesus!
Sunday, 21 June 2009
20.06.09
There is a closet, with its door tightly shut.
It has not been open for ages, subjected to abandonment by its owner.
Now, the owner is being advised to open it up once more,
and what he found was
several skeletons and parts of bones.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
Time to clean it up i guess.
Sometimes i will just run away, away from problems and past experiences. Yet, some of them gradually came back to haunt me, over and over again until i learn to face it and deal with it. Its not easy to change, its not easy to forget and relive the things that happened. We need to face it, with courage and with God. For God called us to be overcomers and conquerers, not one who will run away when a wall of difficulties stands in front of us.
It is written,
(Romans 8:35-37 - Amplified Bible)
Who shall ever separate us from Christ's love?
Shall suffering and affliction and tribulation?
Or calamity and distress?
Or persecution or hunger or destitution or peril or sword?
Even as it is written, For Thy sake we are put to death all the day long; we are regarded and counted as sheep for the slaughter.
Yet amid all these things we are more than conquerors and gain a surpassing victory through Him Who loved us.
It has not been open for ages, subjected to abandonment by its owner.
Now, the owner is being advised to open it up once more,
and what he found was
several skeletons and parts of bones.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
Time to clean it up i guess.
Sometimes i will just run away, away from problems and past experiences. Yet, some of them gradually came back to haunt me, over and over again until i learn to face it and deal with it. Its not easy to change, its not easy to forget and relive the things that happened. We need to face it, with courage and with God. For God called us to be overcomers and conquerers, not one who will run away when a wall of difficulties stands in front of us.
It is written,
(Romans 8:35-37 - Amplified Bible)
Who shall ever separate us from Christ's love?
Shall suffering and affliction and tribulation?
Or calamity and distress?
Or persecution or hunger or destitution or peril or sword?
Even as it is written, For Thy sake we are put to death all the day long; we are regarded and counted as sheep for the slaughter.
Yet amid all these things we are more than conquerors and gain a surpassing victory through Him Who loved us.
Monday, 15 June 2009
13/14/15 June 09
God is amazing! Great things happened over this weekend...
Firstly, my mum called me before service to ask how i am, and how's life here. And then she actually encouraged me to pray! Haha God is working in her heart, i can sense that she is softening up more towards Him.... Yay! Haha!
And service is really touching! Full of points for me to touch on and apply.. and of cos to joke with the brothers in service! Haha! Wonder who are the 4 guys ah... Must be people in my unit la... Really thank God for the fruitful service!
And on to Sunday.....
Had a fruitful meetup with NS bros and Bao ren. God blessed us with a wonderful time of fellowship filled with lame jokes and some games...
But the most amazing part came later in the evening..
Some committee members for the MCG went to Angel's house to create props for the games this tuesday, and the workload seemed so heavy that everyone believed that we gonna drag home the props to finish up. But God intervene and helped us to finish it by 9pm! Thank God! Our work will never be in vain when we serve Him with the right purpose! What seemed impossible to complete is completed right before our eyes! Amazing....
(Philippians 4:13)
''I can do everything through Him who gives me strength.''
(Mark 10:37b)
''All things are possible with God.''
May the Name of the Lord be praised!
Firstly, my mum called me before service to ask how i am, and how's life here. And then she actually encouraged me to pray! Haha God is working in her heart, i can sense that she is softening up more towards Him.... Yay! Haha!
And service is really touching! Full of points for me to touch on and apply.. and of cos to joke with the brothers in service! Haha! Wonder who are the 4 guys ah... Must be people in my unit la... Really thank God for the fruitful service!
And on to Sunday.....
Had a fruitful meetup with NS bros and Bao ren. God blessed us with a wonderful time of fellowship filled with lame jokes and some games...
But the most amazing part came later in the evening..
Some committee members for the MCG went to Angel's house to create props for the games this tuesday, and the workload seemed so heavy that everyone believed that we gonna drag home the props to finish up. But God intervene and helped us to finish it by 9pm! Thank God! Our work will never be in vain when we serve Him with the right purpose! What seemed impossible to complete is completed right before our eyes! Amazing....
(Philippians 4:13)
''I can do everything through Him who gives me strength.''
(Mark 10:37b)
''All things are possible with God.''
Wanna affirm Han yang here for being a devoted brother; he went all the way from his home in Bedok to Hougang just to meet us in time for fellowship. And later contributed his efforts in making the props even when he is not part of the games committee. Thank God for you bro!
May the Name of the Lord be praised!
Friday, 12 June 2009
12 June 2009
Time passes by so quickly, soon i will be 2 years old in Christ...
Looking back at this one year and 354 days, i would say its has been a turbulent journey filled with high mountains and deep valleys. So many things have happened within this short period of 24 months. I thank God for His grace and patience, because i am really indebted to Him...
I remember that before i was a believer, i used to go to a megachurch with my secondary school teacher, who is a believer and member of that church. Large numbers of people are gathering outside the hall, waiting to pour into the auditorium when the service starts officially.
I said, ''See, that's the power of religion.''
My teacher replied, ''No. That's the power of God.''
Ya right. Whatever. That's what i thought.
I went to the church for a further 3-4 times, and after that stopped going because i lost interest in it.
However, God continued to stretch out His hand for me to come to know Him. There were lots of surveys, questionnaires and through them, opportunities were opening up once more. I joined a cca camp in school, and from there i came to Hope church where i decided to accept Jesus into my life.
Christ changes life. He transforms a person not by rules, nor by regulations and commandments, but by grace, and by the transforming power that shape people's character.
He does not put a leash of law around your neck, restricting your will or freedom. For people who are under law are subjugated to it without appeal, and punishment becomes a threat and deterrent that takes the form of unpleasant consequence.
Genuine will does not exist in forceful submission. God wants us to be willing to be changed by Him. That's why Christ was sacrificed on the cross, so that a path may be opened to us to communicate and establish a relationship with God through Him. From this relationship, God changes man starting from the heart, that the change may overflow and subsequently affect the external actions and attitudes of a person.
God once changed a man who was doubtful, who said 'i will not commit' right after a sinners prayer, to someone who commits to Him for 2 years. I believe He will change you too.
Looking back at this one year and 354 days, i would say its has been a turbulent journey filled with high mountains and deep valleys. So many things have happened within this short period of 24 months. I thank God for His grace and patience, because i am really indebted to Him...
I remember that before i was a believer, i used to go to a megachurch with my secondary school teacher, who is a believer and member of that church. Large numbers of people are gathering outside the hall, waiting to pour into the auditorium when the service starts officially.
I said, ''See, that's the power of religion.''
My teacher replied, ''No. That's the power of God.''
Ya right. Whatever. That's what i thought.
I went to the church for a further 3-4 times, and after that stopped going because i lost interest in it.
However, God continued to stretch out His hand for me to come to know Him. There were lots of surveys, questionnaires and through them, opportunities were opening up once more. I joined a cca camp in school, and from there i came to Hope church where i decided to accept Jesus into my life.
Christ changes life. He transforms a person not by rules, nor by regulations and commandments, but by grace, and by the transforming power that shape people's character.
He does not put a leash of law around your neck, restricting your will or freedom. For people who are under law are subjugated to it without appeal, and punishment becomes a threat and deterrent that takes the form of unpleasant consequence.
Genuine will does not exist in forceful submission. God wants us to be willing to be changed by Him. That's why Christ was sacrificed on the cross, so that a path may be opened to us to communicate and establish a relationship with God through Him. From this relationship, God changes man starting from the heart, that the change may overflow and subsequently affect the external actions and attitudes of a person.
God once changed a man who was doubtful, who said 'i will not commit' right after a sinners prayer, to someone who commits to Him for 2 years. I believe He will change you too.
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